Well,

Today was interesting...So was last night but I'll get into the details of that later.Today for the first time I got up at 5:30 A.M. for testing.It was quite boring, okay...very boring..Levi sat next to me, we kept bumping elbows...heh..

Okay I'm about to start crying.I know me and Levi are going to break up.

I wrote him a note today basically asking what's going to happen between me and him after Joey Dozart gets back from arrow head...

Well what I told him was going to happen is:

1)If Joey has A lunch we wont be able to sit by each other anymore.

2)We wont be able to talk in the hall ways or anything

3) I cant go over to his house anymore because me and Jake aren't friends anymore and even if we were I couldnt because Bradon Davis's(his mom knows my mom)mom seen me going to levis house. She lives across the street from him and told my mom. So that's not going to happen anymore.

Well, after Levi read that note I knew he was upset but I had to tell him what was going to happen...And I needed to know what he thought of and what he wanted to do. He started writing me a note in English class and then gave it to me after school...

It said:

"Hey Crystal, it really sucks that things have never gotten any better. I was always hoping something good would happen, but it never did. I still cant even see you at school? I cant see or do anything with you anything at all. Cant even talk. Oh well... I guess I can finally see things arent going to get any better and they are just going down the drain. It was so much easier being your friend in Gym class. I dont like seeing you hurt so often. It kills me. What I want to know is, do you want to break up? It's been the question I've been trying to avoid but have to ask now. Well I'd like to know what you think.A hard thing to do.It's been great but I can finally see things arent going to get any better. Well write me back sometime when you can. Sorry things havent worked out.Still always be friendslike we used to be, up to you.

Bye"

I was crying the entire time I typed that. I'm gonna miss him, really. But I know breaking up is probably the best thing to do in this sitution. Geez, I hate things like this.I know Shawn is going to ask me out when me and Levi break up. It wont be for a lil while afterwards but he will. And If I say yes then I'm not gonna tell Levi. I dont want that to hurt him, even though I think he might like Taryn Green...

Geez.....Now I'm listening to a song that really reminds me of Levi...here come the water works again... :'(

Me and him had some really good times, and I'll never forget them either...A piece of me will always be with him...

Well Shawn just called so I guess I'm gonna go now.